Perhaps Dr. Conrad Murray should have thought twice when he considered self-publishing a memoir of his life with the superstar, Michael Jackson. He titled the book, “This is It,” which is disrespectful enough, considering that was to be the same title of Jackson’s comeback concert tour in England. However, Murray did not stop there. He subtitled the book, “The Secret Lives of Dr. Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson.”


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Dr. Murray, who is widely considered to be the physician responsible for the death of Michael Jackson, shows us how he thinks rather highly of himself in the book. He did work very hard to come up the ranks to attend medical school and become a cardiologist. This is impressive considering his family was not wealthy, and his father was not a part of his life until he met him at the age of 25.


What is not so impressive are the tax liens, judgments, and back child support he has owed for his children. He dedicates the book to nine of them. Yes, nine. Murray seems to be impressed with himself, though, having become the physician to such a superstar known and loved all over the world. He shares in detail about the time he spent with Jackson that was not for medical reasons but because their friendship had blossomed.


He claims that he and Jackson had a relationship that transcended doctor and patient. He talked about his daily routine and that Jackson would, “sing to me every morning,” and said, “he had a voice like an angel.” Dr. Murray makes mention of how he was Jackson’s “only confidante,” and that Jackson shared things with him that he was made to promise he would never share with anyone.


He claims Jackson referred to him as his “only friend,” and shared with him a family secret that was so guarded that no one was to ever be told about it. Murray carefully thought it over and agreed to keep the secret. Murray stated to Jackson, “Michael, I would never betray your trust. That information will go to the grave with me.” Clearly, this is not the case. Murray’s promise apparently only took effect as long as Jackson was still alive and paying his salary.   


During what appears to be a rather emotional rant while writing, Murray states how he was “remanded unjustly to prison, and stripped of my livelihood.” He goes on to say that [It was] “An attack that caused the collapse of my entire empire and insurmountable widespread grief and suffering for my children, my family and me; they have pushed me past the breaking point.” He lost his empire, but Jackson lost his life.


Murray makes himself appear to be completely blameless concerning Jackson’s death, and seemingly tries to make himself look like a saint. He speaks of having treated Mother Theresa, and credits himself with giving her a life-saving pacemaker, while refusing to accept payment for services. Meanwhile, he paints a picture of Jackson as a liar, an addict, and obsessed with the idea of marrying his goddaughter, who discredited those claims as “ridiculous.” It makes me wonder, was he Jackson’s friend or not?


Murray consistently makes claims of things Jackson said about other people, including other celebrities such as Ginger Rogers, calling her a derogatory term in the book. For that reason, Murray could benefit from learning a lesson in discretion. Reviewers have called the book a “trainwreck,” and “terrible.” It is quite simply a book that never should have been written, ever.


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